Anxiety

I just looked up the symptoms of anxiety and i think i have developed anxiety over the last couple of weeks. This diagnosis comes from the obvious reoccurring symptoms i have been having. I'm going to list my symptoms.

Normally, I can sleep for 12 hours. No joke. Without even moving or changing positions. When i was in school, i'd go to sleep around 11pm and wake up around 10 or 11am the next day. Now that i am at home, I tend to start feeling sleepy around 10pm (crazy right?) and i wake up no later than 7am. for the last 2 days, I've been waking up earlier than 7am. Last night, i woke up at 3am. the night before that was 5am and before that was like 6:30am. The fact that i can't sleep as much REALLY bothers me. I don't like it one bit. I mean damn, i am on "vacation" and i am up at 7am typing a blog post. Not cool!

Then there are the headaches. I get these crazy headaches which feel like someone is using a hammer inside my brain and hitting my nerves or something. The headaches can last anywhere from an hour to all day! This is also really annoying because when i get a headache, i get in a "leave-me-alone" mood where almost anything can annoy me.

There's also worrying. In the next 2 weeks, leading into the first week of July, my life may or may not change drastically. All i do is think about it and hope that this change comes my way and everything works in my favor. When i say that's all i think about, that's ALL i think about from when i wake up until when i go back to sleep. This thing which may or may not happen to me is BIG so maybe i worry so much because i don't know the outcome yet.

These are the most common symptoms i've been experiencing so idk if that is enough to say i have anxiety. This whole not sleeping thing is the one which is the worst! anyone who knows me knows how much sleep and i are Bffs. I LOVE to sleep...it's one of my favorite activities after eating. The fact that i CAN'T seem to stay asleep for the life of me is annoying.

Hopefully this all passes after this BIG thing happens in 2 weeks. I am keeping my fingers crossed and praying. If you read this, please pray for me too because i really really really really need this big thing to happen. Thanks!

peace&love