ungrateful

Sunday morning with my omlette and fruit medley breakfast, a few thoughts traced my mind as i listened to Tasha Cobbs' vocals on spotify.

I started to think about how alone i was in this apartment all by myself. How much i wanted more and how much i wished i had certain people around me. Wishing i had more money or more time to travel and do the things i WANT to do.
Then at the very same time, almost eerily, i started to think about how much i actually have. and felt, OMG...how can i even open my mouth to complain or want more? there are literally thousands of people who would do whatever it takes to be where i am, doing what i am doing and have what i have.
And then an overwhelming shame came over me. I felt SO ashamed that despite EVERYTHING I already have and will have, i have the audacity to have feelings of unsatisfaction...i mean...how is it possible that with all of THIS...i still sit and wish i had more?

Is it a part of the human condition? is it really human nature to always want MORE??? what is this obsession with not being satisfied with the present?

Maybe it comes from the fact that we tend to compare ourselves with our peers and think Ok, if they have done xyz and have xyz by this time, i must be slacking..but NO. because your path is your path. no one else's.